I don't really know where to begin or how to write this, I'm not crying at the moment, I think all my tears have dried out my eyes. I've had a miscarriage at 10weeks, it's been a roller coaster weekend involving ambulances a&e and numerous blood samples - that's not to mention the more invasive procedures.
I tried to reassure myself everything would be ok although within 24hrs of the bleeding starting my pregnancy symptoms had begun to fade all the medical staff I saw over the weekend were great and reassuring. Sadly the inevitable happened yesterday, and was confirmed today.
The miscarriage itself was horrific, and stupidly I thought I'd be ok home alone. I had no idea that I'd have contractions which caused me to be doubled over in pain and i had to call mr g in great distress sobbing incoherently down the phone, another trip to a&e. Then a trip to EPAU today to be told I had miscarried. Everyone has been so very kind. I have to go back for extra bloods on Thursday just to ensure its not ectopic. Physically I still ache, but the worst part for me is dealing with the horror of the things I've seen the last few days.
I keep being asked how I feel, honestly I just feel fragile.
My thoughts are with you, hugs are being sent your way xox
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss!! Hugs xxx
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you. It's an awful, awful thing to happen.
ReplyDeleteI miscarried at eight weeks back in August and I still feel the emotional hole. You and your family are in my thoughts. Hold the people you love close to you and take the time you need to heal.
Lots of love,
Claire xxx
Oh my God honey - I've only just seen this! What a horrible shock for you. I have no idea what to say. I know we only know each other from this mad world of blogging but I like to count you as my friend and I'm devastated for you. I'm so sorry honey x
ReplyDeleteSending you love from one who knows x
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts are with you xx
ReplyDeleteThank you for all the kind comments xx xx
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely heartbreaking. I was just catching up on your blog toady and I am so shocked and sad for you, sending as much love as possible xxxx
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss. Take very good care of you in the times to come. It is normal to grieve and you may feel exhausted so do rest as much as you can. Seek support (sadly so many women go through this although each loss is an individual one) and tap into organisations that can support you too. Sending my very best wishes. You are always so lovely with me.
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness lovely. I'm so so sorry. I feel terrible for not knowing this sooner, I've not been online as much lately and not caught up with you on Twitter.
ReplyDeleteI know there's not a lot I can say to make it better, but I'm thinking of you and am so sorry for your loss. xx
I had no idea. I'm so very sorry for your loss. Absolutely heartbroken for you xxx Take care and be kind to yourself xxx
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